Friday, December 22, 2023

Hilcias and the Greyhound Bus

The Greyhound bus chugged out of the Charleston station into the South Carolina night. 


There were 4,000 miles between Charleston and Point Hope. 


"That's how far blue whales migrate from Mexico to Alaska," thought Hilcias. "If they can make it, maybe I can make it, too."


This first part of the journey would take four days. 


He closed his eyes. 


He felt the tires of the bus thump against the road, listened to the soft snore of a soldier in the seat behind him, and swayed gently from side to side as the driver moved from lane to lane around late night traffic. 


He drifted off to sleep and became a blue whale.


The thump of his giant fluke in the deep waters moved him along at 14 miles per hour.


The songs from other blue whales from different waters touched his great heart.


His giant body swayed from side to side in the Pacific Ocean waters.


He woke to the hand of a frail, old woman on his shoulder. 


"'Scuse me," she whispered, "I hate to wake you up but my ticket says I'm 'sposed to sit here beside you."


Hilcias rubbed his eyes with his fists and looked up into the face of the woman glowing in the soft lights of the bus.


There were deep wrinkles in the corners of her eyes and across her forehead.


The  wrinkles didn't seem to be wrinkles of worry that he'd seen form on his mother's and abuelo’s faces as they worked farms and fields and lived among strangers in small Southern towns. 


No, they seemed to be wrinkles of kindness that might have come from years and years of loving and hoping, the kind of wrinkles you get when you cradle a baby in your arms and rock it deep into the night, the kind that come when you study the small, quiet things in the world and wonder why so few people see or hear the beauty they hold.


She tried to keep her eyes open, but they stayed closed a bit longer with each blink, and her head nodded to each passing mile along the highway.


Her breathing came into rhythm with the wheels of the bus on the road. 


The bus moved around a curve and she slid ever so slightly against Hilcias’ body. 


His small shoulder sank into her tired, withered breast and his smooth cheek rested on the folds of skin on her thin, bony neck. 


Her gentle breaths made a soft whistle through her nose, so soft that no one but Hilcias could hear it. 


Hilcias not only heard it but also understood the story the whistles told. 


- When my chi'ren were yo age, they walked to school 'long a dirt road.


'Bout haf way dere, a school bus'd pass dem by, ev'ry day. 


It'd stir up mo dust'n you evah seen'n yo life and dat dust'd swirl 'round my chi'ren, cling to dey skin, and turn de water in dey eyes to mud. 


"Why won't dat bus stop and pick us up, momma?" dey asked me.


Well, I knew dey'd come a day when I'd haf to sit wid'em at de table and tell'em 'bout de way things was, 'bout how a school bus wit white chi'ren on it couldn't haf black chi'ren on it, too, 'cause dats de laws of men's hearts.


But I know'd dat day hadn't come quite yet. 


I hoped so much in my own heart dat 'fore dat day came, a new day'd come when de laws of God's heart'd overcome de laws of men's hearts and dat bus'd stop, op'n it's doors, and welcome my chi'ren on board.


"Don't you all worry 'bout dat bus now, you hear?" I answered.


"Lissen now.


When dat bus passes you by, you stop for a minit and think 'bout dat dust all 'round you. 


Breathe deep and let it come into yo lungs 'till you breathe it out wit yo breath. 


You think 'bout dat dust, you hear?


You 'member dat dust is made up'a tiny little particles, so small you cain't see 'em 'less dey all together. 


And you 'member dat dust is what we all made of, all of us, folks inside de bus n outside de bus, and one kind'a dust ain't superior to another kind'a dust.


It's de stuff God made us out of.


'Member dat, my loves. 


'Member dat."


Hilcias listened to her sleeping, listened to the soft whistles of her breathing, listened to her story, and loved her.


"A blue whale's heart is as big as a Volkswagon Beetle," he thought. 


"It must feel love very deeply and very widely, because its heart is so deep and wide. 


My heart is just the size of my fist. 


I don't think it can hold as much love as a blue whale's heart. 


But I surely feel a deep and wide love for her.


I wonder where this love came from.


I don't know. 


Maybe it's because we're both small, quiet ones who no one sees or hears.


I hope I'm as beautiful as her. 


I hope I whistle the same beautiful song as her."


He put his tiny hand on top of hers. 


You've heard of the narwhal whale, haven't you? 


Along with the bowhead and beluga whales, it is an Arctic whale, living all of its life in the icy waters of the Arctic ocean. 


It's called the unicorn of the sea because it has a single horn that protrudes up to nine feet out of its forehead. 


In ancient times, its horn was given to the kings and queens of Europe to use as scepters, for many thought there was great power and magic in it. 


It's not really a horn, though. 


It's a tooth. 


Like a human tooth, it is very, very sensitive. 


If a narwhal tooth breaks, it causes the poor narwhal a sharp and abiding pain. 


When that break happens, an amazing thing happens in the life of narwhals. 


Another narwhal will place its tooth into the broken tooth of the hurting narwhal.


That act of kindness assuages the pain.


He hoped his hand might somehow assuage her pain, and her hand might assuage his pain, too.





Hilcias the Silent

Hilcias studied the yellowing eye chart on the back of the closed door of the room at the Barrier Island Free Medical Clinic.


He practiced saying the letters in his mind, from Spanish to English, from English back to Spanish, until he could think them in seamless line.


His mamí flipped through the pages of an old Life Magazine with an immigrant mother and child on the cover.


His abuelo stared at a watercolor painting on the wall of a heavy laden peach tree, the colors of the ripe peaches glowing brightly against the white walls of the room.


He clasped his hands in his lap and looked thoughtfully into them as if he were looking into the deepest parts of the earth.


“Tap, tap, tap,” came a sound at the door.


A young doctor walked into the room.


“Buenos Dias, amigos,” she said. “Me llamo Maria. ¿Como estas?”


She had eyes like his abuelo, deep, kind and earthy brown.


She wore a white doctor’s coat, faded blue jeans with holes at the knees and an old pair of Chuck Taylor high top black tennis shoes. 


“Well,” she began, “Let’s talk about Hilcias.


We looked over his brain scans and studied them very carefully. 


We didn’t find any organic reason why he doesn’t talk.


The other tests on his ears, nose and throat came back normal, too. 


So all of the parts that help him talk are well and good inside of him.”


His mamí put her arm around his shoulder, held him close, and breathed out a long, slow, quiet sigh of relief.


“But we still haven’t answered the question,” continued Dr. Maria. 


“Why doesn’t Hilcias talk?”


She pulled up a chair in front of him, sat down in it, and leaned her face close to his face until her nose gently brushed against his nose.


“So now we’ve got to walk together down a path into places we don’t know,” she smiled. 


“The only person who can tell us why he’s not talking...is not talking.”


He smiled back at her and looked away from her eyes and down at her feet.


Suddenly, he whistled the most beautiful notes Dr. Maria had ever heard in her life.


They reminded her of the joy she felt as a little girl standing in the fields with her family on their farm in El Salvador.


At the same time, they reminded her of the sadness she felt as she worked day after day to help person after person who was just trying to make a better life in a place where it was hard to live.


The music brought a stillness and a quietness to the room.


After a moment, the old abuelo spoke.


“He says he does speak, but not many people understand him, I think.” 


And it was true.





Friday, September 22, 2023

Be a Poem

Be the feet of the people

Be the hands of the people

Be the cries of the people

Be the songs of the people

Be the poems of the people

Be the blister on the campesino's foot

Be the callous on the farmer's hand

Be the tear on the child's cheek

Be the freedom song

Be a poem

Be the feet that march together

Be the hands that join the work

Be the cloth that wipes away the tear

Be the song that inspires courage

Be the heart of the people

Be




We

Tuesday, June 14, 2022

A Day in the Life of an Indie Weiter

Inquiries, Inquiries, Inquiries


Hi Friends. I recently had an op-ed piece about my love for public schools published in the P and C, but I wanted to send you a classroom story about immigration and how immigrant kids are seen through the eyes and hearts of their teachers in case you’d like to use it in the future.


Each school year I write small stories that I call Notes from Public School. By the end of the year, I have 180 of these small stories about my classroom, school, students and families in my inner-city school. Here is an example of some of the stories from this year in a blog I created (http://inourheartswewonthemall.blogspot.com/)


If you’d ever like a perspective of a 15 year veteran 4th grade teacher in a Title 1 school that serves mostly black and brown families (and who loves them deeply and dearly) just let me know. Many heartbreaking and heart mending things happen in my classroom every day and I try diligently to look closely and listen carefully and write the stories down so I can share them with my community, state and world. 


Thank you for your great work at P and C. One of my heroes is Jennifer Berryy Hawes. I went to hear her share and sign her book Grace Will Lead Us Hime at MC Judson  booksellers here in downtown Greenville and her insightful writing about the massacre at Mother Emanuel Church in Charleston touched me deeply and moved me mightily. She’s amazing as are all of your staff.


I’m thankful to find a newspaper home in the P and C bcsuse in this day of on-line news stories, I still love a food newspaper with local stories about local people who are making the world a better place for everybody. Plus I love the investigative journalism, which I feel helps us get to the essence of the truth where we are surrounded by the video of hall truths and whole lies.


In friendship,


Trevor Scott Barton

(864) 525-9530

trevorscottbarton@gmail.com


Small Story

Notes from Public School 2021-2022

‘Hearing’ and ‘Hereing’ by Trevor Scott Barton

Berea Elementary School

Greenville County School District


Paola was a first-grader from El Salvador who lived in a small apartment with her grandma, mom, sister and uncle. 


She was a wonderful kid, and has become a wonderful young lady.


The road from the countryside of El Salvador to the upstate of South Carolina is long and hard. 


If you take the time and make the effort to ask the migrants who travel along that road, “Why are you trying to make it to the United States?” they will answer, “I’m trying to find una vida mejor, a better life.”


The journey along this road is fraught with danger and heartbreak. 


Listen to these words from journalist Oscar Martines, who embedded himself with migrants on the migratory road from Central America to the Mexican – United States border and wrote about the people he met there in his book The Beast: Riding the Rails and Dodging Narcos on the Migrant Trail. 


"We walk on, telling ourselves that if we get attacked, we get attacked. There’s nothing we can do. The suffering that the migrants endure on the trail doesn’t heal quickly. Migrants don’t just die, they’re not just maimed or shot or hacked to death. The scars of their journey don’t only mark their bodies. They run deeper than that. Living in such fear leaves something inside them, a trace and a swelling that grabs hold of their thoughts and cycles through their heads over and over. It takes at least a month of travel to reach Mexico’s northern border…Who takes care of them? Who works to heal their wounds?"


Before The Beast was translated into English, it was titled Los Migrantes Que No Importan, The Migrants Who Don’t Matter.

 

It is important to remember that people do not leave their family, their homes, their land unless they have to. 


If your children are threatened by violence, sickness or poverty, you migrate and look for una vida mejor for them. 


If your house is bombed and your land is stolen from you by the state or by narcos, you migrate and look for una vida mejor. 


If you open your cupboard, and there is nothing there but dust, and you reach into your pockets to find money to buy food, and there is nothing there but lint, and there is no sustaining work for you to do to support your family, but only less than subsistence wages, you migrate and look for una vida mejor.

 

No, no one wants to leave their family, their homes, their land unless they have to. 


No one wants to take on the danger and heartbreak of the migratory road unless they have to. 


But some people have to. 


Here in the United States, there is work that needs to be done that could provide una vida major for migrants.


There is a way for migrants to find food, shelter, clothing, work, medical care, and education for where there was none before. 


There is a way unless we block that way for them through political demagoguery or caustic indifference, unless we think they don’t matter.


My little student Paola matters.


All of the Latinx students around me matter.


Please let me tell you a story.


One time, a new student named Billy walked into Paola’s classroom.


“Hi,” Paola whispered to him as he sat down beside her. 


“I’m glad you’re in our class.”


She didn’t know the story of the suffering that brought Billy to our school, but perhaps she recognized something familiar in his taut face, quivering voice and shaking hands.


“This is your journal. 


It goes in your desk, like this,” she explained. 


“These are our crayons and markers. 


You can use them if you want to. 


Don’t worry. 


There’s lots to learn. 


I’ll help you.”


Perhaps her eyes are so kind and her mind is so helpful and her heart is so compassionate because she made the journey on the migratory trail from El Salvador to here.


So many of my Latinx students have compassionate eyes, intuitive minds and compassionate hearts. 


They are beautiful, ingenious, wonderful and courageous. 


They are the opposite of the destructive, demagogic, dehumanizing words Politicians use to describe the immigrants at our southern border looking for una vida mejor. 


They are human beings. 


They are life.


They matter.


I want you to know something.


I want them to know, too.


I am here to take care of them.


I am here to heal their wounds.


I have no superpowers to help them.


I only have stories to write and a fragile life to give.


But I hear.


And I’m here.


Maybe that’s good enough for today 💛


Dum Spiro Spero.








Monday, June 13, 2022

Left Foot Poems

I just received this e-mail.

I sold my first book through my fliers downtown.

My heart is smiling 💛


“Thank you Trevor. I saw the flier outside of city hall. Seemed like a fun way to take in some new art”