Monday, April 6, 2020

the little monk

from The Brothers Karamazov
by Fyodor Dostoyevsky


“This is what I think of you, you will go forth from these walls, but you will live like a monk in the world. You will have many enemies, but even your foes will love you. Life will bring you many misfortunes, but you will find your happiness in them, and will bless life and will make others bless it - which is what matters most. Well, that is your character.”


the little monk smiles and the dimples grow deep on his weathered cheeks

the little monk knows that one action affects another and one life affects another

the little monks hands are both strong and supple, calloused and tender - opposites together - parts made whole


— Trevor Scott Barton, “the little monk,” 2020







Fragments of Hilcias’ Notebook

Chapter 17


“I’m going to be an aanaga,” smiled Asiavik.

In the Iñupiat language of Northwestern Alaska, aanaga means grandma.

The dimples grew deep on her weathered cheeks.

She finished the last stitch in the blanket she was making for the baby who was coming.

She held the blanket in her hands.

They were tough hands.

When she was a girl, she butchered, skinned and cooked the seals, caribou and whales the hunters brought into the village center for the people to share and eat.

She picked up eggs from the rocky, frozen Arctic earth.

The handle of the knife she used for this work grew worn and smooth over the years.

Her hands grew strong and calloused.

“Ah,” she thought as she looked at the knife’s handle and her hands, “It’s the Iñupiat way.

One thing affects another.”

Her hands grew tender, too.

She planted, nurtured and shared the astonishing, beautiful gerum flowers that grew on the Point Hope ground.

The oil from those flowers made her strong, calloused hands supple and tender.

Her hands were best for holding a newborn baby.
“Sting, calloused and supple, tender - you hold opposites together in ways that make parts wholes,” she thought.

“That’s also the Iñupiat way.”

She could hardly wait to wrap the blanket around the new baby, to hold the baby in her hands.


- “Fragments of Hilcias’ Notebook,” by Trevor Scott Barton, stories for a brown-eyed girl creations, 2020

Sunday, April 5, 2020

the little monk

from The Brothers Karamazov
by Fyodor Dostoyevsky


“This is what I think of you, you will go forth from these walls, but you will live like a monk in the world. You will have many enemies, but even your foes will love you. Life will bring you many misfortunes, but you will find your happiness in them, and will bless life and will make others bless it - which is what matters most. Well, that is your character.”


the little monk

here is a poem the little monk wrote for 52 Blue, a whale that roams the North Pacific Ocean without a family or a friend

whale

song

lonely

where are you?

wandering, singing

singing unheard wandering songs

can you hear me? are you there? are you? i am alone

listening, longing for songs gently sung, i hear you, song on water, i’m here, i’m here

we sing at diff’rent frequencies, migrate along diff’rent routes, wandering, wondering
unheard, unknown, wandering the sea, songs on water

singing unheard wondering songs

wondering, singing

who are you?

gentle

song

whale


the little monk understands you hold opposites together in ways that turn parts into wholes


the little monk knows the crystals that form a snowflake are sensitive to initial conditions, so sensitive that a wind blowing over the ice, a cloud passing between the sun and the earth, or the vibrations from the heartbeat of a bowhead whale can change the snowflake into something different and new



— Trevor Scott Barton, “the little monk,” 2020

Friday, April 3, 2020

the little monk

the little monk knows the road can be long and hard, fraught with danger and heartache, but he will walk it with you and hold your hand


the little monk know migrants along the migratory road are making una vida mejor in the world and are giving una vida mejor to the world


each morning, before sunrise, the little monk whispers to the world, “I am here to care. I am here to heal the wounds. I am here.” This is his humble prayer


- Trevor Scott Barton, “the little monk,” 2020

(fragments from Hilcias’ notebook)

In my story “Hilcias,” he writes this poem for 52 Blue, the mysterious whale for which he and Taki are searching.

It’s written in Fibonacci form.

It seems like a good poem for the ‘now.’


whale

song

lonely

where are you?

wandering, singing

singing unheard wandering song

can you hear me? are you there? are you? i am alone

listening, longing for songs gently sung, i hear you song on water, i’m here, i’m here

we sing at diff’rent frequencies, migrate along diff’rent routes, wandering, wondering

unheard, unknown, wandering the sea, songs on water

singing unheard wondering songs

Wondering, singing

who are you?

gentle

song


whale

Thursday, April 2, 2020

52 Blue

Here’s a chapter from my story “Hilcias” for today.

Enjoy 🙂

#kindness #courage


In 1992, in the North Pacific Ocean, a Navy hydrophone picked up the song of a whale.

The whale sang.

And listened.

Sang.

And listened.

But heard no song in return.

Normally, a whale sings it’s song and other whales sing back.

In the vast loneliness of the sea comes friendship through music.

This was not a normal situation, though.

And this was not a normal whale.

Scientists named him 52 Blue.

They named him that because when he sings, the frequency of his whale song is around 52 Hz,   the frequency of basso profundo, the frequency just above the lowest note on a tuba.

When other whales like 52 Blue sing their whale songs, they sing between 10 Hz and 40 Hz.

They can’t hear 52 Blue’s song.

Because of this, he is known as the loneliest whale in the world.

Whales are communal creatures.

They live their whole lives in family groups called pods.

Whales are migrants.

They migrate from warm waters to cold waters back to warm waters to find food and give birth to their babies.

They follow the same migration routes year after year.

52 Blue is alone.

He doesn’t follow a predictable path.

The 2004 edition of the journal Deep-Sea Research reported that the song of 52 Blue came from a whale whose movements “appeared to be unrelated to the presence and movement of other whale species.”

He wanders the ocean.

He is a wandering whale.

We don’t know what kind of whale 52 Blue is.

He could be a deformed blue whale.

He could be a mixture of a blue whale and a fin whale.

He could be a kind of whale we’ve only heard but never seen.

There is much in life yet to be discovered.

He is a wonder.

Scientists are searching for 52 Blue as I speak.

Will they find him?

Will he find them?

Does he want to be found?

I wonder.

Hilcias wrote this poem for 52 Blue:



whale

song

lonely

where are you?

wandering, singing

singing unheard wandering songs

can you hear me? are you there? are you? I am alone

listening, longing for songs gently sung, I hear you song on water, I’m here, I’m here

we sing at diff’rent frequencies, migrate along diff’rent routes, wandering, wondering

unheard, unknown, wandering the sea, songs on water

singing unheard wondering songs

wondering, singing

who are you?

gentle 

song

whale


* If you’re interested in learning more about 52 Blue, you can follow @lonelywhale on Twitter and you can read a wonderful piece by the great writer Leslie Jamison in The Atavist Magazine here - http://magazine.atavist.com/52-blue




Wednesday, April 1, 2020

Taki

In a place that hadn’t been seen by many people, she hadn’t been seen by many people, either. 

She lived in the far northwest, inside of the Arctic Circle, beside the Chukchi Sea, in a town called Point Hope.

The Iñupiat people there knew from the beginning that every snowflake that falls from the sky anywhere in the whole wide world is unique. 

No two snowflakes have ever been alike. 

No two snowflakes are ever alike. 

No two snowflakes will ever be alike. 

The crystals that form and make a snowflake are so sensitive to the conditions around them that a breeze blowing over the ice, a cloud passing between the sun and the earth, or the vibrations from the heartbeat of a bowhead whale surfacing on the waters of the Chukchi Sea can change them into something new.

Taki’s mother and father knew she was like a snowflake.

In the first moments of her life, her mother swaddled her in a warm blanket her grandmother had made just for her.

Her grandmother had sewn the three Arctic whales into that red blanket with yellow thread the color of the morning sunrise over the icy waters.

"With the beluga whale, I hope curiosity and song into the life of the baby," she had whispered, "For the beluga look quizzical in the way they look at you and sing songs that cause us to call them the canaries of the sea.

With the narwhal whale, I hope compassion and empathy into the life of the baby, for the narwhal will place the tip of it's own hornlike tooth into the broken tooth of another narwhal to ease it’s suffering and pain.

“And with the bowhead whale, I hope mystery and endurance into the life of the baby, for the bowhead's name is Balaena mysticetus and that best describes it's wonderful, mysterious ways.  It lives longer than any other creature on Earth for it’s heart beats slow and strong in the cold, cold Arctic water.”

As Taki looked up into the weathered faces of her parents with her deep brown eyes, she whistled a beautiful song her Father had heard only once before in his life.

As a boy, he had been roaming across the ice near the edge of the sea, hunting bowhead whales with his father. 

There, as he stood still and silent beside the water, a bowhead rose to breathe in a breath of air.

For the Iñupiat people, the bowhead whale was a source of life.

They subsisted on it’s body and bones, eating it’s blubber to keep them fed in deep winter, using it’s skin and baleen to make their boats and fishing nets, and using it’s skeleton to frame their small houses. 

They whispered it’s name with reverence and awe.

He raised the harpoon to strike the great whale, and he whispered an old prayer his grandmother had taught him.

I think over again
My small adventures
My fears,
Those small ones
That seemed so big
For all the vital things
I had to get and reach
And yet there is only one
Great thing,
The only thing
To live to see
The great day
That dawns
And the light that fills
The world

He plunged the harpoon into the whale.

He would remember that moment for all of his life.

Normally, when a bowhead whale is struck with the sharpened iron barbs of a harpoon, it dives into the deepest parts of the water and flees across the sea, trying with all it’s might to get away and stay alive.

This whale, though, was not a normal whale. 

It was like a snowflake.

As he looked into the eye of the great whale, as he watched the light go out of it’s wise eye, he thought, “This whale is willingly giving it’s life for the lives of my people.”

The last sound it made was the beautiful whistling song that Taki made on that day of her birth.

As her mother and father looked down at her, they wondered, “Will her song reach the tiny, powerful ears and the giant, kind hearts of all the bowhead whales around is?”

They wondered, “Is the ancient wisdom of sacrificial love working in the world again?”

And they were afraid.


- Trevor Scott Barton, “Hilcias,” 2020